Today is a bad day. I look at myself in the mirror and want to be sick. I hate my body and I hate who I am.

Working the midnight shift tonight. Pretty hard feat when you are normally asleep by 9!

So many illegal fireworks at Christmas time…
Week 3!

In reality, this is week three of my new healthy outlook on life.

In the bad news sector, I got gastro a couple of days ago and therefore have not been able to exercise.

On the plus side, I have been eating well and have lost my appetite a bit which has made me lose a bit of weight. This sounds totally wrong considering I was sick, but I should at least get something out of it.

So I’ve lost 1.5kg (3.3 lbs) this week :D

I am pretty excited because weight loss is great no matter what but the real test is for me to be able to get under the 60kg (132 lbs) mark. If I make it to this, the rest of this journey will be easy. I always almostget to this point and then something happens and I stop being good. But not this time. My boyfriend and I are determined and we will do this :)

I finally went to the doctor about my anxiety problems today. Hopefully this will be another positive change in my life.

I feel that puberty did not do me justice and therefore will always hold a grudge :)

Than annoying moment when your best friend apparently talks to your brother more than she talks to you. FML.

I almost had a heart attack. My boyfriend bought me a few dresses that are a size 12 (size 10 US) and I tried them on. NONE OF THEM FIT. I almost cried. However, I then decided to go onto the website where I purchased them and compare sizing for this website to another website I use more regularly. Turns out, there sizing is very different. The place I bought them from goes a size smaller than the one I normally buy from. I wanted to post this because it isVERY IMPORTANT to check these things. Otherwise you could be feeling like shit for no reason!

I find Samara Weaving to be such an inspiration. Not only does she have a beautiful face, but she has a gorgeous body that is really natural and womanly. This is something I strive to have, I don’t want thighs as small as my calves - it’s just not an aim of mine.